Year of the Baby

The Return happened this past Sunday and was a little heavier than normal, and much much crampier than normal. That was not fun!

All week I've been plagued with the question of whether or not we'll be trying again this cycle. The whole "I want to be a mom without the pregnancy part" thing was still ruling my thoughts.

I have a million reasons why I'm not ready to be pregnant again: I've gained 7 pounds, I don't feel emotionally or physically ready to endure a pregnancy, M is currently out of work, pregnancy (once again) no longer sounds like an exciting or feasible way to become a mom - and those are just a few.

Yesterday, as I continued this line of pondering, the thought came to me that I can think of lots and lots (apparently a million) reasons why not to try again right now, but that maybe the question I should be asking is whether there are any reasons we should wait. Okay. That's not coming out how it was in my mind, but hopefully you get the idea.

I mean, our children will be born into a loving home, with happily married parents and a stable home life. All good things. Any reasons not to do this? Not any I can find. Not any that in the grand scheme really matter.

Today we traveled down to Oro Valley to spend some time with M's family. I watched one of M's brothers interact with his children, and had an overwhelming desire for a Family of my own. Don't get me wrong. M and I have made a dandy family with just the two of us. But since, as they say, three (or more) is the magic number, the magic seems to be missing from our family of two.

Machen sie sense? It does to me. Mostly.

So, unto the convincing of my husband, 2009 will be the Year of the Baby. Hopefully an October or November one. Yes! I can feel the magic already. . .

~Nichole