Thick Thick Thick

I went to the doc yesterday and had another ultrasound. They could not see a gestational sac. Although he didn't say, it might still be early yet.

My uterus is "very thick". In fact, doc said some of his infertility patients would kill to have half my thickness. I take my victories where I can.

What he also said was to pack some "mondo pads" for my trip just in case and intimated that maybe just being prepared would ward off a miscarriage.

In a word, its a crap shoot. He can't do anything but wait and see. I can't do anything but wait and see. And pray. I also received a blessing last night.

And when I woke up in the wee hours of the morning, my mind raced with the worst possibilities and scenarios of the phone call about my quant results when they call me with them. I forced those scenarios from my mind and forced myself to consider happier possibilities - like my numbers going up (my hcg being 6,000 - no! 10,000 - and my progesterone 25) and being able to see this burrito baby when I get back at 7 weeks.

*crossing fingers*

And trying not to be too tired after my rough night.

~Nichole