Medical Anxiety

I decided late last week that I would call my doctor early this week and make an appointment for Thursday, when I would be 5 weeks along.

I got to the afternoon, got around to getting ready to dial the doc up, and found myself very anxious.

So much so that I called M, who said "so go in next week. Or wait longer. Whatever."

So much so that I e-mailed B, who said "I'd wait until they can tell you something definite."

So much so that I texted L, who said "whatever you do, don't wait too long."

So much so that I called, e-mailed and texted all 3 within about 2 minutes of each other. And sometimes simultaneously.

Up until the looming phone call, I had been calm. So, I truly did not know what to do with the sudden jolt of anxiety. Once I decided to just wait until next week, when I'll hit 6 weeks, I felt so much better. So much calmer.

Later, I Googled "gestational sac" and found pictures of gestational sac at 4 weeks, 5 weeks, 6 weeks, etc. At 4 weeks, a gestational sac may or may not be able to be seen by transvaginal ultrasound. (My doc couldn't see it last time when I was 4 weeks, 3 days). At 5 weeks, a tv u/s should show the gestational sac with a yolk sac floating in it. At 6 weeks, you should see the gs, ys, and the embryo via tv u/s, and possibly even cardiac activity (though this is more likely between 6.5 and 7.5 weeks).

SO, I feel fairly confident that 6 weeks is a great time to go for my first visit, despite my doc's desire to see me "as early as possible". There's just no point in going in and hearing "this is where you're at and let's just see how things develop". I would rather go in when there's something to know/hear.

In the meantime, there's nothing to make me worried or make me think otherwise. Obviously if something comes up, I'll go in sooner. But until then, I'm feeling happy being like any other normally pregnant woman and not being medically managed so early on. Hopefully my doc won't hate me for it.

~Nichole